{"id":22404,"date":"2023-09-29T20:55:12","date_gmt":"2023-09-29T17:55:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v13\/?p=22404"},"modified":"2023-09-29T21:08:43","modified_gmt":"2023-09-29T18:08:43","slug":"i-shouldnt-have-been-like-this","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/i-shouldnt-have-been-like-this\/","title":{"rendered":"I Shouldn&#8217;t Have Been Like This"},"content":{"rendered":"<h3> I SHOULDN&#8217;T HAVE BEEN LIKE THIS <\/p>\n<h3>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/wakeupummah.com\/fireplayer\/video\/44cd7a8f7f9f85129b9953950665064d\" width=\"100%\" height=\"360\" frameborder=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" webkitallowfullscreen mozallowfullscreen allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I shouldn&#8217;t have been like this<br \/>\nMy neck should have fallen onto my shoulders when I heard your name<br \/>\nA fire should have broken out inside of me<br \/>\nI should have walked on air<br \/>\nThen I should have lost my conscience<br \/>\nI should have said your name when I forgot my own<br \/>\nBut no one should have heard this,<br \/>\nI should have kept you until the judgment day<br \/>\nI shouldn&#8217;t have been like this<br \/>\nWhen spring sang its songs to the darkness<br \/>\nI should have run to every knocking door saying &#8216;it&#8217;s you&#8217;<br \/>\nFootsteps should have come from afar<br \/>\nI should have always thought it was you<br \/>\nWhen the night sprinkled its stars into the sky<br \/>\nI should have slept to see you<br \/>\nNo matter who the songs are sung for<br \/>\nI should have listened as if they were written for you<br \/>\nMy room should have been filled with songs,<br \/>\nWhen a voice said &#8220;I left a beautiful beloved one&#8221;,<br \/>\nYou should have been the beautiful beloved one<br \/>\nThe words &#8221;since I fell for your fire my coal-eyed one&#8221;<br \/>\nMust have been said for you.<br \/>\nBut no one should have known this,<br \/>\nI should have kept you until the day of judgement.<br \/>\nI shouldn&#8217;t have been like this<br \/>\nWhen the words carry Taif to my ears<br \/>\nEven before the wind of Taif hits my face,<br \/>\nThe traces of the stones should have been seen on my face.<br \/>\nWhen Uhud was mentioned, my teeth must have been in pain.<br \/>\nAn afternoon in Haram<br \/>\nWhen evil eyes turn to you<br \/>\nAnd when unfaithful hands reach out to you<br \/>\nMy heart must have been in pain and I should have been out of breath.<br \/>\nWhile you were preparing for the beyond,<br \/>\nWhile the beyond was being dressed and prepared for you,<br \/>\nI should have thought about you in the window you looked at for the last time,<br \/>\nLike the curtain closing for the last time,<br \/>\nMy eyes should have been closed.<br \/>\nThen I should have reached forward<br \/>\nShouting out the name of the One Who blessed us with you,<br \/>\nSaying &#8221;ALLAH&#8221;<br \/>\nI should have fallen to the ground.<br \/>\nBut no one should have known this.<br \/>\nI should have kept you until the day of judgement.<br \/>\nAnd on the judgment day&#8230;<br \/>\nIf only I could watch you from afar.<br \/>\nIf only I could approach you<br \/>\nIf they blocked me,<br \/>\nAnd if they asked &#8216;Who are you, who are you to be so close to him? &#8216;<br \/>\nIf only I could not talk because of tears<br \/>\nIf only you turned your eyes to me<br \/>\n&#8216;My heaven is your eyes looking at me.&#8217;<br \/>\nAnd if only you smiled<br \/>\nIf only no one saw that,<br \/>\nIf only I could keep you forever.<\/p>\n<p>Recited by: <a href=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/artist\/06gxKbVlHD2gLb02OSmrqp?si=s6XtwKwgQQSz3kGnQRxQ5A\" rel=\"noopener\" target=\"_blank\">DURSUN ALI ERZINCANLI<\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/category\/literature\/poems\/\" rel=\"noopener\" target=\"_blank\">LISTEN ALL POEMS<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I SHOULDN&#8217;T HAVE BEEN LIKE THIS I shouldn&#8217;t have been like this My neck should have fallen onto my shoulders when I heard your name A fire should have broken out inside of me I should have walked on air Then I should have lost my conscience I should have said your name when I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":22405,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[230],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22404","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-poems"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22404","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22404"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22404\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/22405"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22404"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22404"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kayifamilytv.com\/v18\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22404"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}